Friday, August 31, 2012

Diary: Fashion Investments,and New Series/blog!

Hello Lovlies:)

Today I wanted to do a little catching up. First, I had a really fun time doing Tag Week! I saw some of my tags get re-done, and had a blast reading them all! It was a good time, and I like doing posts that let you get to know me a little better, as well as getting to know you all better!

So, Fashion Investments. Just like practically every girl on the planet, I am always adding to my wardrobe, and always trying to get the most for my money. Unless you have recently won the lottery, I am sure cost plays a role in your fashion/ beauty purchases. But how many really good quality classic items do you actually own? With the fall season coming up, I am of course thinking about all of the new fashion purchases I will soon be making. But, I have also been inspired to start building a better quality wardrobe. I am going to start researching high-end, classic items that I want and start saving for them. Sure, for one pair of Louboutin's you could get a ton of clothes at let's say, Forever21, but those shoes will last you forever, and depending on the style, never go out of style. So basically my new goal is to invest more often than just thinking about quantity. I am not saying I  am going to stop shopping at H&M, Forever21, etc, and I am not saying those store don't offer high quality items. I am just going to invest more in closet staples. But, I am going to of course make this a series!!!

I am going to start sharing my research  with you and you can all help me shop for these items. I will also give reviews, and share shopping/investing tips. :)

Another new series or blog( haven't decided) is going to be a blog with both my husband and myself on newlywed life, and relationships in general. We are going to answer questions, share our stories, give advice, and hopefully make some new friends. We are both really excited! if anyone has any questions about relationships, marriage, couple issues, etc, please feel free to ask us! We will answer everyone!

I want to end with a quick apology, and ask for your patience. I am trying to keep up blogging as best as I can. I am adjusting to a new job, and schedule. I have been inconsistent the past few weeks because I am trying to juggle alot of new tasks! Please be patient while I figure out a posting schedule that allows me to post daily! Thank you:)

Thursday, August 23, 2012

30 Personality Questions Tag *Tag Week Extentsion*

Hey Beauties,

For the final tag of tag week, I chose the 30 personality questions tag. I would really like anyone who reads this post to do this tag, and leave the link so I can check yours out!

1. Do you like your name?

Yes, I do. I used to not care for it, but I think it suits me. :)

2. What age would you like to be right now?

 I actually think my age right now is perfect( I will be 21 soon.)

3. Do you have pets?

Andre and I don't have our own pets, but our families do. We are so excited to be pet parents someday:)

4. How many best friends do you have?

5. What is your favorite color?


6. Do you like to go shopping?

DUH! Shopping is my life!

7. Are you into sports?

I really enjoy watching sports, and I like to play some, but I am not very good at them. Oh well,I try!

8. What is your favorite hobby?

Blogging or designing.

9. Do you like to read?

I love reading!

10. What do you do when you are mad?

I try to take a deep breath and think of 3 positive things in my life.

11. What word do yo ucatch yourself saying alot?

Sheisse. It's a bad word, and I shouldn't say it as often as I do.

12. Mcdonald's or Burger King?


13. Coke or Pepsi?

Neither. I HATE soda!

14. Summer or Winter?


15. Are you nice to everyone?

I try to be, but I am not perfect.

16. Do you like swimming?

Yes, it's one of my favorite activities to do with my husband.

17. How do you do your hair most often?

Lately I have been doing ballerina buns with cute headbands.

18.  What city or state do you want to go to?

I just want to go back to the States and see my family and friends. Anywhere they are.

19. What kind of ice cream is your favorite?

Mint Chocolate Chip!!

20.  Hot Cheetos or Doritos?


21. Do you like school?

I am not in school anymore, but I didn't like it when I was.

22.  Are you in school?

23. Do you play video games?

I play Just Dance, Mario Bros, Singstar, Wii Sports, etc.

24. What do you do for fun?
I like to read, write, design, blog, dance, swim, cook, shop, etc.

25. Do you talk alot on the phone?

Not really, I am only on the phone about once a week when I call my family.

26.  Are you shy or talkative?


27. Do you like going outdoors?

I am not super outdoorsy, but I don enjoy walking etc :)

28. Do you like rainy days?

I love the rain. It is perfect weather in my opinion.

29.  What is your favorite restaurant?

 The Station in Long Beach, CA

30. Are you awesome?

How silly of a question. I guess I am awesome, in a clumsy way. :)

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

The Married Life Tag *Tag Week Extended*

Hello, hello!

Due to some things that came up, I am extending tag week today. I will do this tag, and the last tag will be up later today! Normal posts will resume tomorrow. Thanks for all of your patience!

The Basics

Name: Amanda

Birthday: October 18th

Birthplace: Washington, USA

Where were you raised? Lots of places in the USA

Current Location: Germany!

More about you

Are you divorced? nope!

Are you married? Yes, this is the married life tag, right?

Date of marriage: July 27th, 2012

Date you met: March 20, 2011

How did he purpose? He took me to a memorial and proposed there.

Did you cry? A little bit!

Did he cry? No, but he was very red and nervous, it was adorable:)

About him

His name: Andre'

His birthdate: March 17th

Where was he raised? Germany

His occupation? IT Technician

The first time you saw him you thought? I honestly thought he was a rude guy at first, but changed my mind later that day!

Where was your first date? A roller derby!

When was your first kiss? Shortly after we met.

Your life together

Do you have children? no

If yes, how many? none

Was he there for the birth? NO KIDS! :p

How long did you wait before you had children? We are still waiting

If you have kids, will you have more? We would like two or three.

Most romantic thing he has ever done? Taken me to Paris on a date!

Memory of him that sticks out the most? The day he asked me to be his girlfriend:)

Is he still the only one you have eyes for? Absolutely.

Is your life better because of him? In more ways than I can describe.

Does he encourage you in what you want to do? Yes, he is so suportive.

Best gift he ever gave you? His love, and promise to love me forever.

The family

What do your parents think of him? They really like him!

What does he think of your parents? He likes them alot!

What dose his parents think of you? They love me, we are really close.

What do you think of his parents? I love them!

Do either of you have siblings? We both do! Do you both get along with them? I get along with all of my siblings (I have 4) and he gets along with his for the most part.

Life in ten years:

Where you'll live: Hopefully in New York

What you'll be doing: Something that makes me happy.

Will he still make your heart beat fast? everyday.

Will you still know what he's thinking just by looking at him? Yes, we know each other so well. We were best friends before we were ever together.

A little more about you:

Is your life where you thought it would be at your age? No, it's so much better!

Do you regreat your past? I used to, but not anymore. I have learned alot, and I am a better person.

Are you happy? Very much so.

Okay, favorite song? "Icing" by Charity Vance

Favorite singer? Too many!

When you have extra time, you do what? Exercise, clean, play games with my husband,shop, etc.

Favorite vacation spot? Too hard to choose!

Who do talk to the most on the phone? My mom.

On the computer? Everyone from back home!


Person you know will always make you laugh: Andre

Smartest person you know: My friend Lisa

Most giving person you know: My friend Kat

Person you respect the most? My family and friends.

Sweetest person? Andre

Most religious person? My grandmother

Most creative person? Me.

Person you admire the most? Walt Disney

Person you would love to smack the most: A few relatives...

Your thoughts:

I don't understand... Why things happen the way they do sometimes.

I'm thankful for... My life, and everyone inside of it. And my job!

I'm happiest when... Cuddling with my husband or at Disneyland.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Get to Know Me Tag! *Tag Week!*

Hey Dolls,

Today, I did the get to know me tag! I tag all of my followers to do this tag, so we can all get to know each other a little better!!

1. Are you named after anyone?

2. When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday, actually!
3. Do you have kids? No.
4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?
I would. I think I am an okay person!
5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Only if I know the person well. I don't too much with strangers, because I don't want to offend anybody
6. Will you ever bungee-jump? No. I don't have the guts.
7. What's your favorite cereal? Trix for sure!
8. What's the first thing you notice about people? If they are friendly or not. I am a friendly, welcoming person, and I connect well with people like that.
9. What is your eye colour? Brown.
10. Scary movie or happy endings? Both! Depends on my mood.
11. Favorite smells? Versace Bright Crystal, Vanilla, lavender, Ponds Dry Skin Creme
12. Summer or winter? I am a Winter person.
13. Computer or television? Computer, I rarely watch TV.
14. What's the furthest you've ever been from home? I was born in the United States, and lived there my whole life. But I now live in Germany, and that is the farthest from thr US I have been.
15. Do you have any special talents? I can speak German, I am excellent at shopping, I am a good writer, and I do alot of different art forms.
16. Where were you born? Tacoma Washington, USA
17. What are your hobbies? Blogging, shopping, makeup, writing, learning, exercising, cooking, trying new things, etc.
18. Do you have any pets? Not yet, Andre and I can't wait to be kitten parents!
19. Favorite movie? Too many, but a shortened list: The Vow, The Notebook, Hot Rod, Life Is Beautiful. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, and the Titanic.
20. Do you have any siblings? Yes, 2 younger sisters and 2 younger brothers.
21. What do you want to be when you grow up? Happy. No matter what I decide to do.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Would You Rather Beauty Tag *Tag Week!*

you rather go out with messy hair and nice make-up or Nice hair and no

Messy hair and nice makeup!

2.Would you rather shave your eyebrows or have your eyelashes fall out?
 :O neither! But I think I would shave my brows.
3.Would you rather be forced to shop at only MAC or Sephora for the rest of your life?

Sephora. Love MAC, but I would have a wider variety at Sephora.

4.Would you rather wear lipgloss/lipliner look or 80's perm?
Lip gloss!
5.Would you rather leave the house with an obvious foundation line or overdone blush?

Overdone blush, you could surely make an excuse for it ;)
6.Would you rather wear MC Hammer pants or biker shorts in public?

Biker Shorts.
7.Would you rather have a bad orange-y spray tan or really weird tan lines that can't be covered?
Weird tan lines!
8.Would you rather have a bad haircut or bad hair color?
oh goodness...bad cut!
9.Would you rather have youtube or twitter taken away forever?
Twitter, I am on youtube wayyyyy more!
10. Would you rather give up using makeup brushes or mascara?
Ouch.... I would say brushes, i would surely not survive without mascara!

I hope you all enjoyed this tag. I tag Kristy From Just Another Day to do this tag!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

The Beauty Blog Tag *Tag Week!*

Good Afternoon/Evening Lovlies!

For today's tag, I found a beauty blogger tag,  so I figured that would be perfect!

1. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
My hair is straight with a subltle wave.

2. What is your natural hair color?
A very nice dark brown:)

3. Do you dye it yourself or go to a salon?
I haven't dyed my hair in well over a year. I am satisfied with the color. Back when I did dye it, I used a salon.

4. How often do you wash your hair?
It depends. My hair is going through a weird phase where one section in the back always feels waxy. It is due to my new hormone treatment, and should settle in time, but I wash my hair with dish soap every 2 days.

5. Do you wear the same style every day or change it?
Hair and beauty are like fashion to me, my looks always depend on my moods and what's going on that day.

6. Do you do your own mani/pedi or go to a salon?
I have been doing my own since I moved to Germany. I did have gel nails professionally done for my wedding, but I typically do my own manis/pedis.

7. How often to you change your nail polish?
Once it starts to chip, I will either touch up or change the color.

8. Do you polish your toes in the winter, too or just in the summer?
I have my toesies polished at all times!

9. How long does it take to put on your makeup?
It depends. I have gotten good at doing my face really well in a short period of time. Practice makes perfect. If I have a special event, up to 40 minutes, but normally about 15!

10. What do you do first? Face or eyes?
My face!.

11. Do you "collect" makeup or just buy what you need when you need it?
I always think I need it, and it has grown into a collection :)

12. How often do you wear false eyelashes?
I don't. I was blessed with long, full lashes.

13. Do you do a full face of makeup every day?
Define "full face" I do something with both the face and eyes everyday, but I don't go all-out everday.

14. Do you wear makeup when you are home alone (or with family)?
It depends, not all of the time. I am pretty comfortable without it around my husband and family.

15. Will you leave the house without makeup?  
If I am running quick errands, then yes, but I like to have a little on normally.

16. How many high end products do you have?
I do enjoy a splurge every now and then, but my collection is a good mix of high-end/low end.

17. How often do you wash your makeup brushes?
Not as often as I should.

18. Do you plan your OOTD every night or decide when you are getting dressed?
If I have to wake up at the crack of dawn, or have a special event, I will plan.

19. How often do you change your handbag?
Whenever it doesn't match my outfit.

20. What time do you get up & go to sleep?
It depends on my work schedule.

21. How often & when do you workout?
It used to be more frequently, but I need to dive back in. My goal is 4 times a week.

22. Left-handed or Right-handed?

23. How tall are you?

24. Do you speak a foreign language?
I am fluent in German! Ja, ich kann richtig gut deustch sprechen!

25. How many pets do you have?
My husband's family has a cat, and I have a dog named Phil at my mom's back in the states. Andre and I are waiting to become parents of our own kitty and doggy.

26. How often are you on Blogger?

27. Do you read the comments posted blogs?
Yes, I enjoy reading comments!

28. Do you keep a list of products to try as you see other posts?
If I see a really great review on a product, I will keep my eye out for it.

29. How did you come up with your blog name?
I think I remebered seeing the phrase "oops, i'm.." a few years back, and I thought it was so funny! My blog name is changing to "Sugar Fee" though. "Fee" means Fairy in German, and sugar fairy is my nickname!

30. What kind of camera do you use for photographs?
I currently use my Ipod because my poor camera was lost during the move!

31. How often do you clean your house? (Daily, weekly, other)
I make the bed, organize, etc daily, and deep clean twice a week.

32. What is your favorite color?
Pink. Pink is my life. I breathe and live the color pink.

33. What is your favorite beauty/fashion magazine?
I haven't read any since I have lived in Europe other than German Cosmo( NOT as good as USA), But I was always a fan of InStyle, Seventeen, Vogue, and Allure.

34. Do you swear?

It depends what language I am speaking. I speak German most of the time, and they say "shit" quite often.

35. What are you doing with the rest of your day?
It is getting relatively late in the evening here, so I am going to do more laundry, and relax. Tomorrow is my day off of work! Yay! :)

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

40 Beauty Questions Tag! *Tag week!*

Hey beautiful ones!

For Day 3 of tag week, I found an awesome beauty tag " the 40 Beauty Questions Tag". Let's dive right in!

How many times do you wash your face daily?

Normally twice, once if I feel lazy in the morning.What skin type do you have? (dry,oily,combo)

What is your current facial wash?

Loreal 360 clean .. the peach one...Do you exfoliate?
My daily facial wash has very tiny exfoliating beads, but I properly exfoliate once a week!

What brand do you use?


What moisturizer do you use?

My favorite is the Pond's Dry Skin Cream

Do you have freckles?

Not too many, but a few!
Do you use eye cream?
I do! I think it is so important, start as soon as possible!
Do you or did you have acne prone skin?
I did when I was 13/14, but it was just puberty, It evened itself out when I was about 15.Did you ever have to use Pro-activ?
Yes, and I loved it. It worked well with my skin, and cleared it right up!


What foundation do you use?
Clinique's Superbalanced MakeupHow about concealer?
I am curretly using Astor concealer
Do you know your undertone color?
I don't know the exact color, but I do know that I have cool undertones.What do you think of fake eyelashes?
I like them, but I don't use them often. I was blesses with long, full lashes!

Did you know that you are supposed to change your mascara every 3 months?

Of course! I am very on top of my makeup expirations!

What brand of mascara do you use?

My ultimate mascara is Maybelline Falsies Mascara.

Sephora or MAC?

uhm, both! Please don't make me choose! ;)
Do you have a MAC Pro-card?
What makeup tools do you use in make up application?
Brushes, sponges, q-tips

Do you use make-up base/primer for the eyes?

Always! It makes a HUGE difference!
For the face?
I only prime my face if I am going out for a special event, or will be exposed to extreme temps, etc. Not every single day, though.

What is your favorite eyeshadow (color or shade)?

I ave tons of favorites, but I am currently obsessed with Benefit's Pink Fancy. I have been using it daily!.Do you use pencil or liquid eyeliner?
Pencil most of the time, liquid rarely.

How often do you poke your eyes with an eyeliner pencil?

Not often, I poke myself in the eye with my mascara wand more frequently than I prefer, though.
What do you think of pigment eyeshadows?
I Enjoy them, but some are too intense for everyday! 

Do you use mineral makeup?

I have honestly never tried it...

What is your favorite lipstick?

My lipstick of the moment is Rimmel London's Vintage Pink.

How about lipgloss?

Art Deco, and the number is rubbed off, but it is a fuschia pink with lots of glitter! It is too fabulous!
What is your favorite blush to use?
I can't choose! I have been using UMA cosmetics blush in Pink Rose quite often.

Do you buy your makeup on ebay?
No, and I don't care to.
Do you like drugstore makeup?
It depends. I really like drugstore mascaras, and I like alot of lipsticks, and some eyeliner. My makeup collection is a mix of expensive/drugstore.

Do you go to CCO's? (cosmetic company outlets)

I haven't ever been to one.
Did you ever consider taking make-up classes?
Yes, and I fully have plans to soon! 

Are you clumsy in putting on makeup?

Not ususally!Name a makeup crime that you hate?
I hate when girls wear a foundation that is too dark, then they don't blend it. It looks like they're wearing a mask, yuck!

Do you like colorful shades of makeup (lipstick,eyeshadow) or neutral ones?

It all depends on what I am doing and how I am feeling.
Which celebrity always has great make up?
I have always loved Kate Winslet's makeup. It's always striking!If you could leave the house using just ONE make up item, what would you use?
Could you ever leave the house without any makeup on?
It depends on where I am going. Running little errands, I don't mind. But I love makeup, and getting ready is thereputic for me!Do you think you look good even without any makeup on?
Yes, but I like to add some color to my skin. I am naturally gohst white, and I actually look sickly without blush. I am extremely pale, but not "oh she has beautiful milky skin" pale, more like "she looks like she is gonna hurl" pale.
In your opinion, what is the BEST makeup line?
I really love clinique, but that's a hard one!

What do you think of Makeup??

I  am obsessed. I collect it, and I am creative with it.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

13 Questions Tag! *Tag Week!*

Happy Tuesday!

First off, sorry for being MIA yesterday, I had a lot to do, but I will make it up with a double post this week, promise!

I wanted to kick off Tag Week with the 13 Questions Tag, so here it is! Leave me your answers below!!

1. What do you order at Starbucks?
A Cinnamon Dolce Latte
2. What's one thing in your closet that
you cannot live without?
My plain black v-neck tee, i wear it with so much!
3. What's one thing that most people probably
wouldn't know about you?
I speak fluent German, or I am fairly good at drawing
4. Name one thing that you want to do before you
Fly first class
5. What's one food that you cannot live without?
TOMATOES. I eat lots of them daily, and grow my own in our garden!
6. What quote/phrase
do you live your life by?

Everthing happens for a reason! I've always really believed that.
7. What do you like and dislike about the YT /blogging
I like that I can have fun and share my passion for beauty, and I dislike that there is so much negativity. While I haven't personally experienced the negative comments, etc., I see them on other gurus blogs and channels, and it bothers me. We should all support each other!

8. What's your number one most listened to song on iTunes?
"Mirror" by Lil Wayne has been my song the past week.

 9. What kind of style would you define yourself as having?
I am extremely girly, so girly and romantic.
10. Favorite number?
I don't one, but I will pick 7!

11. Two hobbies?
Blogging and baking.

12. Two pet peeves?
When people are selfish. I really like to share, and I have always been considerate of others. It drives me nuts when others only consider themselves. The world is so much bigger than one person. My other pet peeve is messes! I clean everyday, and deep clean more than I would like to admit. I need order and sanitation in my life :)

13. Guilty Pleasure?
Youtube. I spend a lot of time looking at beauty videos. What can I say, I'm obsessed! ;) I also like Pick Ups (german food) I actually ate three today :/
 I tag Forever Fushia to do this tag!
X's and O's,

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Product Review: Maybelline's Master Drama Kohl Liner and TAG WEEK!!

Hello, hello!
So today, I wanted to do a review on a new eyeliner of mine that I am LOVING, but before, I would like to announce to you all that this week, I will be doing nothing but tag posts all week! I will do at least one tag per day( if not more) and will be tagging some of my fave bloggers. etc. If you have any requests, be sure to comment below! But now, let's get into the review!

I purchased the Maybelline Master Drama Kohl Liner in Ultra Black about 3 weeks ago. I was in need of a new, good quality black liner for my wedding, and when I swatched this, it was LOVE.

Like it says, the liner is ULTRA BLACK, which was a score. Very opaque, and very dramatic! This liner is also super creamy, and glides like a complete dream! It is very long lasting, and doesn't smudge( trust me, I did the leg work, adn had this on my entire wedding day/night!)! This eyeliner is beautiful, and is by far my most favorite pencil liner! The only downside is, because of how creamy it is, I find myself needing to sharpen it after lining both eyes twice.

I hope you enjoyed this breif review, and I will see you tomorrow with the begining of tag week!
X's and O's,

Friday, August 10, 2012

My Wedding Makeup!

Hey Beauties,

Today I wanted to share with you the tutorial that inspired my wedding makeup look, and share the products that I used! But first, a little backround:

I was having such a hard time choosing my wedding makeup look. The main reasons were A) I would be doing it myself, and B) I needed a look that would translate well. I searched hundreds of photos and tutorials looking for looks that fit my personality, the message I wanted to send, and something with in my capability level. As I mentioned in my Wedding Things post about makeup, it can be really tricky to find the right look. Alot of websites and professionals suggest minimal makeup because you "don't want to look like a whole other person", but if you're like me, I wouldn't look myself with bare minimal makeup on. I love playing up my eyes, so I wanted to find a look that was smokey, but not overdone. I wanted it to be bold enough to show up well on camera, but no racoon eyes! About 2 weeks before the wedding, I found this tutorial, and it was perfect:

I did tweak it a little to match up to my personal preferences, and I did add some steps to ensure that the look would last long. Instead of the pink lipgloss that Laura uses here, I did a berry-pink-roseish lipstick. I also used setting spray to hold all of my face makeup, and used a dark brown pencil liner on my lower lashline. The products I used (including face) were:

Cliniques Superbalanced Makeup in Petal
UMA Cosmetics Face Powder in Light
UMA Cosmetics Blush in Romantic Rose
Biju Cosmetics Sun Powder (bronzer)
Rimmel London's Fix and Perfect Foundation Primer
Benefit's Girl Meets Pearl Highlighter
Astor Cosmetics Concealer in Sand
NYX Eyeshadow Base in Skin Color
Benefit's Eyeshadow in Pink Fancy
MAC Matte Eyeshadow in Charcoal Brown
Benefit's Eyeshdow in Posh Amethyst
Rimmel London's Kohl pencil in Panama
Maybelline's Master Drama Kohl Liner in Ultra Black
ELF Liquid Liner in Black
Maybelline's Falsies Mascara in Black Waterproof
ELF Makeup Setting Spray
Rimmel London's Moisture Renew Lipstick in Vintage Pink

I used an assortment of brushes.

This look photographed beautifully, and was not way too overdone. It also held in place really well throughout the hot/ humid weather, kissing, and dancing. I think you could customize the lips to day or night, etc.

I hope you all enjoyed this look!!
X's and O's,

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

I'm Not Dead!

Hello Lovlies!

I know it's been a long time, a week to be exact. I have really missed blogging! I want to take some time to update you all about the past week.

For those of you who are unaware, I just got married last Friday! I will be doing a "Wedding Re-Cap" post when I gather more pictures together, but I can tell you all that it was a fairytale dream come true, and my husband and I are overwhelmed with happiness and joy. We were showered with so much love and kindness on our special day. As you can imagine, it was hectic! I did alot of baking for our guests that would be at our house throughout the day, as well as baking for the boquet toss! Huh? Okay, I didn't want to throw my bouquet, so I baked cupcakes, and inserted a ring into one. The single ladies dug in, and whoever found the ring is the next to get married! Our friends and family had a blast, and it was a storybook wedding to remember!
A less than flttering photo from the wedding where I am getting flowers out of my dress.
So if getting married wasn't a big enough change, I  also started a job this week! I am just doing some part-time work at our local grocery store as a cashier. I was nervous to start- not because of the job, but because of the language! So far, I understand my co-workers and customers pretty well. It is suprisingly nice to have a place to be during the week. I missed working! Going to work is a double bonus for me because not only am I meeting new people and earning money, but I am learning more and more German everyday!

Recently, I have been so excited about my current life siutation, so I wanted to share.

I haven't been unhappy by any means, but moving to a new country, well, that brings on so many emotions. There have been so many changes in my life in just 7 months. I have had to adjust to being thousands of miles away from any family or friends, had to adjust to living with my husband, adjusting to a brand-new financial situation, being a housewife, getting engaged, learning a new language, getting married, starting a new job, the list goes on. I have defintely experienced ups and downs living here. When I first moved here, it was euphoria- I was finally with Andre physically again, and not for a limited amout of time. But then fear set in. I realized I wasn't on vacation this time- I actually had to learn a new language and become a fully functioning adult in a foreign land. I doubted myself so much; I spent SO much time doubting my abilities to learn to live here. I kept telling myself how bad my German was, or that I couldn't understand. Or that when I started working, I would get fired for sure, because I wouldn't know anything or be fluent enough. Funny thing is, My boss and customers DO understand me for the most part, and I was able to complete my training and understand my job. I have also spent so much time stressing out about the future. Would Andre and I earn enough to move back to the states in 3 years? When could we afford this, that , or the other? What was I going to make of myself? But recently, something clicked; I spent so much time planning on how we could leave here, that I haven't really let myself enjoy living here. Will we move back to the USA? If so, how soon? I can't  say what the future holds. I just know that I am going to continue to live life to the fullest and not dwell on the past or future!

As far as what to make of myself, I feel alot of pressure. I am soon going to be 21, and I have not yet attended college, or decided a "career path", etc. Most of my friends will graduate college soon. But I have been thinking alot, and maybe what "i'm supposed to do" isn't a real career. I truly believe that my purpose in life is to just be happy, maybe I will never have a "career". And that's fine with me, as long as I remain happy.

I will be resuming with my normal posts this week! If you have any requests, leave a comment! :)
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